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Underneath My Scars

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Underneath my scars

There is more than you can see

The pain goes deep and far

And the scars come naturally

But underneath those scars

Is more than meets the eye

Look beyond the surface

Search underneath my scars

And you’ll find

 

More

His love goes so much deeper

I have a hope for life

There’s more than just a scar

Left over from before

There is so much more to me

 

Underneath my scars

There is a girl

Who is dying to be free

From the shame and misery

Because underneath those scars

That they all judge and define

Is the me that is reality

The scars I cannot hide

But if you search underneath my scars

You will find

 

I’m not just a line

Raised above my skin

Left over from a knife

I’m not what I have been

I’m not just the one who cuts

There’s more to my story

Just look underneath my scars.

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Let your light shine…

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your father who is in heaven.” – Matthew 5:14-16


If I am the light of the world, then I am supposed to share my story with others, right? I think so. That is one reason I started my blog. A lot of people ask me what I want to get out of my blog, and I tell them to read the purpose section. But in reality, I have a lot of things I am hoping to get out of this venture. I am looking first of all for myself. I started this blog for myself to be able to process and go through what I am feeling in dealing with the cutting and suicide stuff. I am hoping to get some sort of healing just from writing down my feelings and dealing with some of my issues.

Another goal I had in starting this blog was so that I could reach out to other people. I want to get the word out, as I said in my “Purpose” page, about what has happened in my life. I want people to start knowing, to start finally getting to know me for real. I really love getting feedback from people, who are encouraged, find my story interesting or scary or heartbreaking. I like to hear from you. So let me know what you think. Whether it is good or bad or somewhere in between. I try not to take things too personally but maybe I should in this case since my blog is all about my journey. But nevertheless, I just wanted to share my heart in a little more why I started my blog and why I continue to share my real self – up close and personal, no holding back – with all of you who are this right now.

It is of course terrifying every day that I have my blog open to the public for all to see. But that was also kind of my point. I wanted to be that light on a stand, and not hide under the basket anymore. I want to show the people I love that I am trying to change and that I want to get better. It is really hard for me to post these personal things about myself, (I try to post everyday) don’t ever think that it isn’t. But I persevere and press on towards the goal, because my goal in this is to get better and stop cutting, become free from these shackles that weigh me down and keep me in my depression, find my strength in Christ again, and fall back in love with God, my Father. That is my goal. I want to be a shining light for Him someday.